Choosing Hope and Freedom

Early Saturday Morning: So it’s now 5 am and I have been awake now for an hour. I have been lying in bed for that hour praying and saying to myself “don’t pick up the garbage that you were freed you from last night.”

Friday was the first day of Kingdom Business summit https://kingdombusiness.com.au 

This year we served as well as attend the kingdom Business conference.

 We also had an NCAT mediation hearing going on while we were serving and listening/gaining wisdom from Wez on Friday; which threatened our ability to attend, however due to my Dad going as our representative, we were blessed to still be able to go to the summit.

In the afternoon Dad rang to ask if we would settle with the low offer the customer was giving?  Everything within me even, though I was praying for peace was gearing up for the fight. I had a fire in my belly for the injustice that was being served.

If pride would have it, I would like to say ‘I stuck to my guns’ and didn’t back down but when it started to cause conflict between Clinton and I, I realized that if I chose to spend more time on this fighting for what we were rightfully owed, I was only going to put us through more strain that we don’t need right now, as if 3 businesses, 8 kids and 7 pets isn’t enough!!

So we settled! Was I happy about it – NO!

Did I think …… we could win the next hearing – YES!

But what would I gain from chasing it? – more money and the chance to prove that I could do it; that I could prove that we were right!

What would it have cost me………joy in my marriage…….Joy with my kids……the Ability to cope with anything else………Time to build our business……..and possibly my mental health!

When I realised the impact that fighting would have had on Clinton and I alone, I considered the price of not settling…..too high!! Risking putting strain on an already intense situation was not wise at this point.

I sat and cried about the situation after agreeing to settle, as the injustice was still not sitting right within me. I was asking myself and God

• Did I just give in?
• Should I have stuck to my guns?
• Is it just pride that we were right, the reason I wanted to fight this?

The more I sat and just listened to God, he put amazing people in my path that sat with me, prayed with me, encouraged me, ministered to me. I could not have been in a safer place to deal with all these emotions.

That night we had an incredible worship/church session, praising God together and receiving prayer for a greater understanding and revelation of God’s Hope. As one of the girls prayed for me I had weights/chains that had been weighing on for a long while (so much so I hadn’t even realised that I was carrying them) fall off me and I’ve been experiencing Freedom and overwhelming Joy ever since. I have had Joy over that time but I would say that it was conditional joy. When life got too much I would start to check out and my joy would go with it.

Since then, I can see God has been asking me…….

• Do you Trust Me?
• Do you Trust me when things don’t go your way?
• Do you Trust me to carry out justice on your behalf? It may not be today or in the way I want it but…..will I trust him anyway?

My answer to that is a resounding YES!!

I will trust him no matter the circumstance or how hard the journey!!

So NOW I have a choice to make, how am I going to respond? What am I saying by saying Yes I trust you Lord?

I am saying:

• I choose Clinton over conflict, 
• I choose spending time with my Kids over struggling for time 
• AND I am choosing today to live in the Joy that he died to give me!

I AM ALSO choosing to let go of all fear and not pick it up again. I am choosing to walk with the confidence I have in him that he will finish a good work in me before the glorious day of the Lord.

Friends what choices are you faced with today and how do you choose to respond?

Please message me if you’d like prayer or want to share your story with me.

Have a great day Friends!!

Sarah.

 P.S Below is a video that I watched about 8 yrs ago and it has stuck in my mind I hope it helps you to remember to give your garbage over to Jesus!